ONE YEAR. ONE MAN. ONE PLAN.

Have you ever seen that girl, the one who's all put together on the outside and on the inside she's a complete mess?  Yeah, that's me.  Truth be told I think that's me and every other thirty something girl I know in New York.

For me the biggest problem is men.  (shocker!)  I just love the ones I know won't work out.  Oh, mommy issues, sign me up.  Trouble committing, please, drag me along for a while. What's that about anyhow?  Some pathological way of punishing myself because I never told my sister it was really me who cut the hair off her favorite Barbie? Well today, after staring aimlessly in the mirror trying to figure out who on earth was looking back, I made a decision. 

The decision is to give up on the fairy tale and admit to myself that maybe just maybe it’s not that I’m cursed.  Maybe it’s that I'm sabotaging my life, my love life that is.  I mean, what idiot allowed me to be the person in charge of who I should date?  Ridiculous!  I need an expert.  Well, experts are pricey and rent in this city is off the hook so it looks like I'm going to have to become the expert and take matters into my own hands. 

So today, after several weeks of post breakup talk with friends on how to "get back into the game" I'm getting back in.  With my friend Jen, my main supporter (and instigator I might add) to cheer me on, I'm actually going to take my dating life seriously.  No more “get drunk and tell ‘em how you feel” for me.  I mean business.

My new code:

No longer will I wait for Mr. Right to fall into my lap.  No longer will I suffer through countless disasters (often referred to as ex-boyfriends.) 

From now on I will treat dating like a business.  I will be the CEO of my own luck, my own happiness and my own love life.  The project will last one year and by the end of the year I will have found my Mr. Right.  (As apposed to Mr. Right Now which I usually settle for.  Unless of course Mr. Close By or Mr. You’ll Do are around.) I will create a business plan for finding Mr. Right.

In a city as large as New York how difficult can it be? I have four wonderful seasons ahead of me and after all, I only need to find one guy!